Day two of losing my voice and I absolutely hate it.
Hey internet, It’s been a while and before I explain how I lost my voice, let’s recap what has happened in the last two months.
- Fall quarter finals
- Winter break (!!!)
- Start of winter quarter
And now today, the weekend after midterms week. I’m sure you can tell my life has been very interesting in the last two months. Jokes, a lot has happened which is why I was too busy to blog about it. But hey, I’m back!
And back to my voice (or lack of).
Because last week was midterms week, and I was cursed with a cold during that time, I decided to focus on everything but myself (I mean, GPA is forever right?). Until the other day, when I thought I was fine, I started battling a really bad sore throat. That’s a sign that I shouldn’t talk, right? I clearly didn’t get the memo because I still kept babbling away until yesterday morning I actually LOST my voice. ZERO VOICE.
Doctor told me I have laryngitis.
“WHAT?!?” -Me and pretty much everyone else when I tell them I have laryngitis
I’m actually starting to recover, however. Like today, when instead of waking up with no voice at all, I woke up sounding like a dying goat. Do I know what a dying goat sounds like? No, but if I had to guess, it would be how I sound like right now.
That or my voice cracks sound like those of a young boy going through puberty (x100).
This experience has got me thinking however, I really have taken my voice for granted. Especially as someone who relies on speaking as her primary form of communication. I went to a work meeting today and I realized that verbal communication is one of my main forms of conveying information. And even though I participated and was heard in this meeting and my co-workers understood my situation, I have never felt so vulnerable and unheard.
Similarly, I SING. How am I supposed to do that if I can’t even SPEAK?!?!
I think one of the most frustrating things about this experience was that I couldn’t pursue one of the things I enjoy simply because I was physically incapable of doing so. I’m listening to music as I’m writing this, and all I want to do is sing along to the songs. After all, with my busy schedule, rarely do I ever get the chance to jam out to my guitar or have the time alone in my room so I can sing without fear of embarrassment.
BUT I CAN’T.
Hey voicebox, get better soon. I want my voice back and fully-functioning asap.